OMFG! I am so bored and tired and old. I feel so old. I can't believe I turn 19 in June! I feel like my teen years have slipped from my hands. I feel like I will never again have a free moment in my life to learn trival things like html coding or pig latin. (I STILL HAVEN'T LEARNED PIG LATIN) I also feel like I am missing something or am going to miss something. I mean all of these kids have their things. Their hobbies and they are idolized for it because they are so young or something. I will never be idolized for my talent ever again because I will be old. I am old!

This is it. My life is now gone. Slaved away to textbooks. I have been smart and "ahead of my time"... that is what people have always told me and I think that is just it... I think that is what my fear is... I will become my time. *metaphorically dies at the thought* I just want to cry now. What am I without my books? What am I when I become the age that my mind is at the moment? Nothing. I will become nothing. *cries*

So here I am on this lonely ship wrecked ship.

All alone.

Old and dying.

*sigh*